Sunday, July 27, 2014

A Simple Birthday Wish...

I went into a store the other day and saw some powdered sugar doughnuts!  Those doughnuts reminded me of how much Zach LOVED to eat them and would chow them in no time flat!!!  This memory made me smile.

I was driving home with Mark after his marathon on Thursday.  As I was driving, I remembered when we were driving to Virginia to visit my parents, many years ago.  We had to make a potty stop.  Zach would have been about 3 at the time and was in the process of “potty training.”  Mark took him to the men’s room.  As I was waiting for Mark and Zach to come out, several men came out of the men’s room smiling and laughing.  When Mark and Zach came out, Mark was laughing.  Zach went to the bathroom first and Mark said, “Good job Zach!”  We were doing our best to encourage him ha!  It was Mark’s turn and just as Mark finished, Zach yelled, “Good job Dad!”  I guess he brought the house down with his comment.  This memory made me smile.

Zach has come to me in my dreams.  When he does, I am filled beyond joy.  And, this warms my heart and makes me smile!

I had a lot of help decorating your headstone this time.  I decided I wanted to decorate it with lots of butterflies.  Butterflies, for some reason, make me smile...they are happy and beautiful.

Aunt Pam, your cousins, & Brooklynn & Brielle
Putting the butterflies on...


Brielle with front row seating
The finished product :)

Nana, Papa, Chelsea, Brook, & Brielle <3

Can you tell we are seestas???




The butterflies have hatched!

Isn't this happy???


Happy Birthday Zach!  You would be 16 today.  We would be at the DMV on Monday so that you could receive your license.  You would be ordained to the office of a Priest and blessing the Sacrament next Sunday.  And…you would be dating!  While I am missing you and missing ALL the things you would be getting to do, I know you are not missing any of it!  I know you are happy.  You have the Melchizedek Priesthood and you are serving our Savior by teaching all those who never had the opportunity to learn of Jesus Christ.  I know you are busy, and this brings me peace.  However, you are dearly missed!  Your Dad & I will be sending you your annual birthday balloons with our messages of love to you.  I know you know how much we love you and we, too, know how much you love us!

Happy Birthday Zach <3

These are sent to you with ALL our love <3
Up, up, up...


Almost a spec in the big blue sky...


Off into the big blue yonder...  We love and miss you...
ALWAYS & FOREVER <3

P.S.  I really need to thank ALL your friends who remembered that today is your birthday!  Makaylie posted a quote I have heard many times before, and I wanted to share it in my blog.

“When you have someone you love in heaven, you have a little bit of heaven in your home.” 

I believe we do have a little bit of heaven in our home with Zach being our guardian angel.  Happy Birthday my sweet angel son!  Until we meet again… <3

Life...it can be an endurance race for sure

Mark has been preparing for the St. George Marathon in October of this year.  He then had the thought, “I think I should run the SLC Marathon to help prepare me for the St. George Marathon.”  He wanted to place in his age group and dedicate his efforts to Zach~for Zach’s birthday.
This past Wednesday, we drove up to SLC in order for Mark to run the SLC Marathon on Thursday.  Thursday 3AM came and I delivered Mark to the buses to be hauled up Emigration Canyon.  I came home and went back to bed, ha!

Mark began this grueling marathon by having to run downhill.  The first 16 miles the elevation dropped from 7400 feet to 4600 feet, which included a 440 feet rise from about mile 6 to mile 8.  The final 10 miles were a lot of ups and downs winding through the city until the finish at Liberty Park.  It was very windy for the first several miles, but then got quit hot once he came out of the canyon.  At around the 10-mile mark, he began to feel as if he had rocks in his shoes.  So, he stopped twice, took his shoes and socks off, shook them out, put them back on and returned to the race.  The pain in his feet persisted, but he was not going to let that stop him.  At about mile 21, Mark hit a wall, but he pushed on and persevered and finished the race.


I was anxiously awaiting his arrival at the finish line!!!  I saw Mark round the corner and I was so overcome with emotion.  As I carefully watched him, I knew he was physically in trouble.  But with Mark, where there is a will, there is a way.  I took a couple of photos as he approached the finish.  Seeing his ashen face, I knew he was going to need some medical attention.  Despite drinking at least 2cups of Powerade or water at every aid station, he was so dehydrated he had to be infused with 2 liters of fluid, via an IV.  I left Mom with Mark while I went to get my car.  Upon my return, Mark took his shoes and socks off to find out “why” his feet were hurting.  Upon taking his socks off, he discovered that he not only had severe blisters on the pads and heels of his feet, but also that he lost his entire right heel to a blister. 



Mark was truly disappointed as he took 5th in his age bracket (even though the 4 that finished ahead of him were all younger than him) and 63rd overall out of 329 marathon runners with a time 3 hours and 47 minutes.  Honestly, there is NO shame in these results.  As a matter of fact, every one of us is so proud of him…especially Zach.

Several scriptures come to mind in reflecting Mark’s particular journey on Thursday.

Psalms 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.”
I think Mark probably felt as if he was in the “valley of the shadow of death,” yet he persevered and conquered.


3 Nephi 15:9:
“Behold, I am the law, and the light. Look unto me, and endure to the end, and ye shall live; for unto him that endureth to the end will I give eternal life.”
The sky was a beautiful blue, yet it was searing hot in the sun.  Mark traversed those roads despite the elements and endured to the end…to the end of the race.



And as in 3 Nephi 31:20:
 Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life.”     
Mark pressed forward through dehydration, shin splints, and blisters bigger than the state of Texas (okay… a little exaggeration there).  He had hope that there was an end to that race and it was with that hope he endured to the bitter end.   And at the end of his race, there was relief, there was nourishment, and there was the love of his family~who was cheering him every step of the way.




Family, isn’t that what this life is all about?  I am truly grateful for my family~they ARE my heart.  You DID it Mark!!! 

Life’s A Beach~Especially With Family



We recently took a trip to Emerald Isle, NC.  One of the prettiest beaches and it is quiet there.  We took the entire family and it was a wonderful trip.  The weather was perfect, except when Hurricane Arthur visited.  The shelling was wonderful.  The water was warm.  The waves were just right.  Our granddaughters were adorable as they discovered how to build sandcastles, find the good shells, and learn to boogie board.  We had family pictures taken, but we were just missing one young man.  At sweet and special moments, we knew he was there with us.  There is nothing sweeter than being together with our family.  They are our joy.  They are our hearts.

I have attached two old videos that has Zach in them from our Emerald Isle trip the summer before he passed away.  That summer, for no apparent reason, I took my camcorder with me to the beach.  I was videoing everything.  Little did I know that I would be capturing some "last" sweet moments in time of Zach~memories I am able to watch again with a smile!


The fam at Emerald Isle



We missed Zach skim boarding


One of my favorite videos of Aaron throwing Zach into the waves...
such brotherly love going on there <3

The McCleve's


Papa & Nana


Dr. & Dr.

Performing for the camera

Brielle & Brooklynn <3

Shelling...


The Dunes

The Boys

The Girls



The Wells'
"I'm not so sure about this..."






"Nana!"
Posing

"isss yucky Nana!"

Posing
Playing in the emerald green water <3


Sand time

More...

<3


Feeling the love <3

relaxing

Making sand potions
getting used to the gentle waves


Just cute

"Run before the wave gets us!